I don’t really like waiting rooms – I get impatient when I’m not seen immediately and as we all know, sometimes waiting rooms are crowded and stuffy. Also, simply being in a waiting room usually implies that something is wrong and you need a trusted doctor to bring his expertise, so usually you’re not feeling great – whether it be antsy from anticipation or physically weak from a sinus infection, etc.
On Monday though, for me, I didn’t mind the waiting room. Time flew by and I didn’t even notice or look at my clock. After my appointment, when there was a line for check-out and a lady hurriedly asked me into her office so I wouldn’t have to keep waiting, I sat down and told her not to worry about my waiting. I said, “I don’t mind waiting. I would wait all day for Dr. Karni. He’s my hero.”
Dr. Karni is my Amazing Surgeon who found my thyroid cancer in September 2015 and removed my thyroid in October 2015. He is the best in his field, the kindest man you’ll ever meet, and he showed so much compassion and care for a wide-eyed 26-year-old girl with a million questions when he said the word “cancer.” He found the thing that was trying to kill me, and he got rid of it. And on this side of heaven, that’s about as close to having a real-life superhero as you can possibly get.
I only get to see him once a year, so you can imagine the joy I felt when the day came.
And now you understand why I didn’t mind waiting. And you see why I’d wait five days in that waiting room for a chance to even just say hi and have my brief check-up with him.
Dr. Karni brought me healing, showed me so much compassion, and I know he cares so much about me. I trust him completely and I’d wait all day for the chance to see Him. But this is the thought that’s brought so much conviction: God brought me healing, showed me so much compassion, and I know He cares so much about me. I trust Him completely. BUT, why am I so impatient in God’s waiting room?
I couldn’t get the thought out of my mind. God has proved Himself time and time again in my life, and yet, I am impatient, I worry He has lost His expertise, I worry I’ll be late for other “appointments”, I wonder if He has forgotten about me out in the waiting room, and I forget His deep care for me. How quickly I forget!
I would never tell Dr. Karni that he was slow, not skilled, or that I needed to conduct my own surgery. (!!!!) But oh how quickly I can tell God that my plans are better/faster/stronger than His!
If you need a reminder: our Great God is Healer, Redeemer, Restorer, Savior, King, Good Father, Joy-Bringer, Creator, Life-giver, Sustainer, Rock of Ages, Prince of Peace, Lifter of the Heaviness, Author, Refuge, Good Shepherd, and Friend. He’s everything good and life-giving and wonderful. And He deeply cares about YOU and He deeply delights in YOU.
The more I focus on HIM, His character and His Great Love for me, the more patient I am in the waiting room. I’ve learned the secret for enjoying waiting rooms: it is all about WHO you are waiting on.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
PS if you need a song to put your eyes on Jesus, this is a GOOD ONE: “Worthy of Your Name” by Passion.